Have I done it all?

I wrote a letter to God on June 16, 2025. One paragraph included these lines: 

"There are some things that exhaust me in pursuit of righteousness. Do I need more milk? Do I need more meat? Are you actually more gracious? Are you actually more firm? I get how some people lose themselves in religiosity the longer they walk with God, because then suddenly their world is all about what's wrong and what's right. It's not about walking with God anymore."

In my letter to God, I was so concerned with my doing -- have I done enough? Been good enough? Been obedient enough? Been righteous enough? If not, then I need to be better, I need to do better. I was coming from a place of work, the place of law. And I was dying. 

2 Corinthians 3:6 AMP 

He has qualified us [making us sufficient] as ministers of a new covenant [of salvation through Christ], not of the letter [of a written code] but of the Spirit; for the letter [of the Law] kills [by revealing sin and demanding obedience], but the Spirit gives life. 

I could go on and on about this verse, but the most important point is this: it is the Spirit that gives life. The Spirit -- His Spirit within me -- not my effort nor my frail human will. 

He is the one who makes me sufficient, so I don't need to strive to be; 

He is the one who makes me righteous, so I don't need to strive to be; 

and He is the one who changes my heart to be in obedience, so I don't need to strive to be. 

Sometimes we get lost in our relationship with God because instead of focusing on His greatness to love and to change, we look inward at the places where we've fallen short. We look at the darkness in our hearts and try to clear out the mess before letting His light shine through every crack and crevice. But perhaps the greatest truth and promise is that we'll never be too far gone from Him -- for an infinite God whose presence and being stretches from beginning to the end, east to the west, and heights to the depths, how far is far anyway?

It is currently December 28, 2025 -- six months and twelve days later. Yesterday, I found the answer: 

"If the highest place I reached is at Your feet, then I've done it all." 

-- "What a God," SEU Worship

So take heart, for the Lord is one thought, one prayer away, and if the highest place you reached is at His feet, then you've done it all. 

Let Him do the rest.