Every thought that could be thought about
Note: This piece was written during a time in my freshman year when my mind was immensely overwhelmed with unending thoughts of confusion and self-doubt. I chose to upload it here with little to no revision at all, so you may notice a few awkwardly structured sentences; however, I did remove specific sentences that I regarded as too personal or complex. This may be an emotionally heavy piece for some. Trigger warnings include self-doubt, isolation, and theological questioning. Also, I kept the original structure of how I wrote it and thus chose to not separate the stream of thoughts into paragraphs. Some may find it slightly suffocating to read one entire block of text. It is intentional that the text itself conveys confusion rather than clarity; I've decided to keep it that way. While I am aware that I am publishing a vulnerable piece of writing, I still ask for your grace and understanding instead of judgement, and hopefully, at least one person will be benefitted by reading wha...
